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Published: October 14th 2025, 9:19:39 pm
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I am very sorry for my absence, most of you seem to already know but times are super hard for me right now.
I have owned pet rats since 4 years, I had 3 rats until 3 weeks ago. Now all of them are gone, including my special baby boy Wurmi, who I raised since a baby, he was like a son to me and losing him was super hard, I had strong physical reactions to the loss ( psychogenic seizures). He was old but passed still pretty unexpected. I miss him a lot and it hurts so much. People underestimate how much love these little animals can carry. They are just pocket sized dogs. Then 2 weeks after losing him I lost one of my other rats Mezzo. He had a brain tumor since half a year and fought a lot. He was such a fighter and I knew he had no chance against the tumor. But thanks to his medication he managed to live for another 6 months which is an insane amount of life time for a rat (they only live 2,5 years). I knew it was his time to go and luckily he passed super peacfully in his sleep. But losing him so quickly after losing Wurmi did not make it easier. Now today I had to give away my last baby Mix. It is very very hard for me to see the empty rat room, having no reason to wake up anymore, no one waiting for me in the cage, no one waiting for their food in the kitchen, no one to play with or cuddle with, not hearing the drinking sound anymore...
It all just hurts and I always have super strong physical reactions to emotional stress. Eating is hard, waking up is hard, working is hard.
I know it will get better and I am already planning my halloween shootings for this month. So I will be fully back... Please just give me some time.
I am still managing everything on my own. This account, my other paid account, my sh0p, my social media accounts, crafting, sewing, wig styling, planning on top of managing a big household.
Now the rats are gone so I will have more time... But I will need my time to get to the point of where I will be able to eníoy or use that extra time.
The last months caring for the rats took me like 3-4 hours every day. So about 25 hours a week only caring for them, because they were old and sick.
I hope you can understand that everything is hard for me right now.