This was from a time when I devoted a lot of energy into my ..
Published: October 23rd 2023, 5:07:36 am
This was from a time when I devoted a lot of energy into my fitness. There were a few contradictions I held though.
Contraction 1
I was proud of my progress, but focused on the parts of myself I wasn’t happy with.
Contradiction 2
I told myself that I worked out for myself, but I did not realize how much receiving affirmation fueled me.
Contradiction 3
Once I accepted how much others approval drove me, I stopped sharing. I didn’t like the thought of being perceived as conceited. So I withdrew, thinking that it would help me have better intentions. As expected, if I wasn’t sharing, I didn’t feel motivation.
Contradiction 4
Now I’m coming to a place of embracing the ecology of community. For when I see 🥵 pics of other guys, I love them—like it’s a service to me. So why hold myself to different standards than I have for others?
So this is for you, to give you pleasure and value. And this is for me—which is all right too. As I grow in self-expression, I hope it gives you the space to love and appreciate yourself as well.
Much love ❤️